I’m Going through something I never thought I’d have to…again, yes I am losing another baby.
I’m sitting at the pharmacy as I write this, a place our family NEVER comes. Never once have I filled a prescription for my husband, my kids, or myself in the past 5 years. This is against everything I want to do!
However, it is an emergency since my baby, who is in heaven safe and sound, is an ectopic pregnancy and is life threatening to me if left untreated.
It is very hard for me to have to bring this drug back to the obgyn office in a few minutes to get injected with chemicals with who knows what side effects all to help remove the fetal tissue in my fallopian tube. This is a trial I never wanted.
Venting my sadness, confusion and anger. Which is very acceptable if you have ever been in my shoes. And crying as I walk through the Walgreen’s. Some how going through this I will get stronger and lean the the Lord even more than I ever have.
I do know there is an end to the sorrow, not to ever forget the hope of this baby I lost and the hurt that goes along with that but an end to the lasting pain, and the joy and peace that only the Lord can only fill in my heart… If I let him and if you let Him of you are in some kind of sorrow.
He is our healer through all physical or emotional pain! I am NOT ALONE, He is with me! Here is a song that gives me comfort to know He will pick me up and catch me when I feel like I cannot go on and even through the pain that carries on in my heart, He is my HOPE!
“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.” James 1:2-3